被人推我吃死猫!!!!!

朋友们~我很想你们叻~~可是我被困在笼子里，出不来。。。懂我的人就知道什么意思了。。

有很多让我不爽的事啊~~~很想骂“人”。。。唉~~在这里骂算了。。。

me:"hey,fucker..don't say something bullshit la!!!get out from my life!! dont disturb my life!!!"

只可以在这里发泄~真不爽。。。唉~天啊~为什么让我遇到酱多fucker的。。。以后还有多少个fucker要让我遇到啊？？

难道这些是我的考验？？ 我想应该够了吧~我不想再酱下去了叻~很辛苦，很烦的啦。。。

真希望那些fucker可以消失在我眼前。。永远都不要出现!!! 酱就天下太平了。。。

我想告诉那些不懂装懂的人~~ 他男友要跟她分不是因为我。。因为有一次他载我回家，正当我要下车时。。他告诉我一句话~~~她男友：“我和她不会久，我知道的。。不过不要告诉她”。。。当时的我一句话也没有说过。。只是嗯了一声。。。

而且，她也说过一句话。。她：“我不会因为他（男友）而跟他（关系密切的男性朋友）保持距离的”。。。我还问她：“你真的要酱咪？？ 他是你男友叻~而他只是你的朋友罢了喔。。”

这两句话是不是证明你们两个本身都已经有很大的问题了叻？？ 为什么你们分手一定要扯到我叻？？？ 我真的很不明白。。。还有。。。有些事我根本就没有说过。。。请不要侮辱我的名誉和人品。。。（给路过者：我并不是第三者）

很想大大声说你（女）和他（朋友）有暧昧而弄到你（女）和你男友分手就请不要把事情的责任推到我身上！！！！！！！！ 我不是为你们牺牲的！！！！！还有，你们两个（女和朋友）在一起时，并不是我和你的ex撮合你们。。。是你们本来都有感情了!!!!!不要赖在我身上!!!!!!!不要借我过桥!!!

就是因为这件事，我不再对college生活感到开心，期待~只感到失望，后悔~

早知道就不要陪她读啦。。。早知道就陪我的老友读啦。。。

无可否认，我是一个：你对我好，我愿意为你做我有能力做到的事情。。但是，当我知道你利用我，背叛我，骗我的时候。。。我会记在心里。。一次，我让你。。第二次，我忍你。。第三次，我一定还你!!!! 所以当我还你的时候，我会不顾一切还你。。。把真相讲出来，再找人证将一五一十说出来。。好让大家清楚知道到底是谁耍心计，是谁推卸责任要我吃死猫!!!

这个就是“我的真性情”。。。记住了。。。

不知情的人不要再讲多多。。。你们不是我，不会明白被人逼吃死猫，被人冤枉，被人误会的感觉！！！

当我另一位朋友（女）知道后，竟然跟我说：“我认识她时，我就听到她的这些东西了”。。 我马上回她：“为什么你不要早点跟我说？？ 我很后悔我做错决定叻~~” 然后我朋友竟然只回我一个笑脸。。。==" 知道要早讲嘛~~现在搞到我酱。。。

都已经做了这个错的决定了。。。只可以接受，然后好好读书咯。。。><.....我真的无言了。。。


最后还是要告诉大家：人真的不可貌相。。有些人，真的是两个样。。也有些是两头蛇。。对于信任最好不要超过70%...

23/10/2010

昨天跟朋友们去ampang吃韩国大餐。。哈哈。。不错下，都蛮好吃。。^^我和仪叫了一碗石头拌饭，还有一碗泡菜汤饭。。我们还一起点了一份鸡和猪，等waiter为我们服务（烧烤）。很好吃叻~~可惜的是我没有试到韩国炒年糕啊~~因为她们说不好吃。。。(T.T) 不吃也没关系啦，一碟炒年糕要RM35叻。。算了吧~~吃着吃着。。。饱了。。。可是还有很多叻。。。现在才知道韩国人也蛮大吃的，而且每一样菜都一定是辣的。。。里面的客人全是韩国人叻~~而且个个都眼咪咪的，白白的。。看打扮也知道是韩国人了。。。其实韩国女生都蛮美的叻。。。可是粗鲁点咯。。不过我也斯文不到哪里去啦。。哈哈。。才刚吃饱不久，突然间她们要去看童眼喔~~我不要！！！！！我反对！！！！很怕叻~~我只好哀求她们不要看童眼，看别部戏。。。当时我们六人里，有四人要看，其余的两人（我和晶）都怕。。既然多数都说要看，那就去吧。。而且兴起的我们，很难不去看的。。。哈哈。。我们吃完蛋糕后（仪&婷birthday）飙车赶去看戏了。。。真的是飙车的咯。。晶的驾车技术就像kl人。。割车，飙车，真的一流咯。。本来在前面，突然不见了。。而且是完全看不到她的车了。。。walao~~跟她男友驾车一样“好技术”。。我们九点半从ampang飙车去midvalley买票看戏。。去到midvalley 时是九点四十多分。。可想而知有几快。。去到后，竟然没有了十点的位~~我就说回家喝茶好了。。怎知她们竟然不死心，还要看3D的！！！还是11:30pm的叻~~够力咯。。。看戏时，我是完全不敢看，全程看着电话。。。每当我看回戏时，我一定会喊。。= =" 我也不想的。。。看完后就回家了。。哈哈。。是不错又好玩的一天啊。。既可以和朋友们聚聚又可以和朋友们享受刺激。。真难得啊~~希望她们不要酱忙，酱就可以时常出来聚聚聊天了。。^^

Useful paragaph..

just now i saw some useful paragraph from a person...i know what should i do...i know what is the most important in my world now..i know i should not care about these useless & sadness things...very thanks that person...i will be strong before & after make a decision...i know i will sad...but this is the way i can solve those problems...otherwise,i know my friends will support me...BTW,i can not descibe my feeling now..isizt sad?? release??painful?? hurt?? i think i should keep my mind...then forget about it...some times i will think twise what can i do? what should i do? but i think just decide by god..huh~~~feel wanna go beach feel the wind kiss my face..see the sea play the water...feel the white sand protect my foot....feel the sun around me...feel wanna break for few days at there...feel wanna RELEASE~~~~

SAtiSfy with my result..!!^^

yesterday..i got my result...i felt happy,satisfy with my result...3.70...not bad...but i know my result still can be more better...haha...i will study hard this sem...i will try my best to get good result n scolarship...but...my PTPTN loan REJECT me!!!!WTF!!!how come they reject me??><....haih...so,i need a part time job to earn money...not that easy to get a job...i wan MONEY~~~i need a JOB~~~btw,i still on9 at CITC now...i should back hostel rest n study de lo...nvm la...i also not free to update my blog ald...so...is time to enjoy now..later wan study le...on fb awhile..then back hostel..^^

I dun wan back!!!!!>

I just came back home...hang out v my friends just now....feel tired....haha...thanks my dear friends treat me just now...^^feel happy when hang out v them...yahoo~~we bought some clothes,jeans,belts n other...haha....but not spent more than RM120...haha...but later i wan back setapak already...><....i dun wan back lo...so bored at setapak...feel...like alone...but alone is ok for me...^^ haih..wat can i eat when i'm stay at hostel?? always the same foods...sienz~~nvm la...cheap ma..also can save money de...haha...actually  i have a stronger feel that i dun wan continue study...but i must continue...if not i waste my 1st sem's times n money...but if i continue,will i can handle it well?? will i happy?? By the way,i need to solve my loan problem 1st...if i cant settle my loan,maybe i wont continue...so...depends lo...wat can i do when i'm free on friday?? stay at hostel?? hang out?? depends on my friends lo...having a stronger feel.....i dun wan back.....T.T
can i??? haha...i must face this fact...so...dun think too much...just do wat i should...is time to bath n have my dinner v my family...then...later back setapak...><....stephy,u can do it !!!^^

what a boring day??=="

This morning,i accompany my mom go pasar..i go to the bank check my balance too...but!!!PTPTN haven bank in the money to me!!!><!!!how i pay the fees???haih~~headache....nvm la..i still can pay myself de...after back home,i called PTPTN hotline,but...tha hot line change nombur ald...so i called another nomber...but!!!they didnt answer my called,n told me called back on monday..><...yo...i wan my money leh...plz approve me la...T.T~~after that,i went to grand union v my bf bought some food for my breakfast when i'm stay at hostel...i bought jor my favourite biscuit-honey star..^^happy...i can eat biscuit when i'm watching movie at hostel..yeah!!haha....i also painted my foot nail cause tooooooooo bored.....haha....v a blue base n some shining silver...en...not bad...
I cant c my friends on fb de??? where they go??? haha...nvm la...just now i received a called from my friend...i cant attend their gathering..><!!i'm so sorry...dun wan angry me...u all know my bf de la...i also wish to attend de...u all keep asked me go...but very sorry la....i know u all so disapointed to me...i know u all will feel bored n miss me when no meet me..haha...=P nvm la...we still hv many chance,many times hang out 2gether de ma...right??haha...
Sooooooo boring leh.....wan hang out.....><...1 more day need back setapak le...i dun wan....can i??absolutely cannot!!! if i give up my study,my mom n dad will kill me...i almost write blog everyday...y like that 1??  am i addict in blog?? i think yes...nvm la...write blog is better...can release my emo here...everything just write here n forget it...haha...i will be more happy..but how write when i'm staying at hostel?? em..................
i can write in my netbook n saved in pendrive...when i'm free,i can copy to here...right??...walao...boring lehhhhhh!!!!!!!! cant hang out v friends,no friends on fb...><....sleepy...but i dun wan sleep....wan watch movie,but my dad is watching TV...nothing to do.....eat chips more n write my blog lo...but tomorrow i will hang out v my friends...happy^^...but tomorrow night wan back setapak jor...so boring....sleep awhile 1st,later movie time..i wan end this boring day now...haha...gud nitez...Zzzz~~

不安。。

刚才看了一个朋友的blog，真的写出我的心声。。这个假期让我领悟了很多事情。。还有两天

半就要回college了。。我此刻的心情很不安。。不知道又会遇到什么事，不知道要面对多少的

困难。。很不想回去。。现在的我很想挖个洞钻进去，什么都不用烦。。可是就算再怎么

想，我还是逃避不了要面对的事情。。真的很不安。。。唉~~怎么办呢？？我可以做些什么

好让我的心情安稳下来呢？？很讨厌不安的感觉。。我真的很不想回去。。可是我又很想见

我的朋友们。。我还可以像以前一样跟朋友们大声讲话大声笑吗？？我想我还是不要好了。

。我不想又有事情发生在我身上。。唉~~~不安啊不安。。。快远离我吧。。我并不喜欢你

。。我想要快乐，我想要简单。。这样就已经足够了。。可以吗？？O.o~~很希望时间可以

快点过。。希望下个sem break可以快点到来。。就趁现在这两天半的时间好好休息，好好

放松吧。。^^