I dun wan back!!!!!>

I just came back home...hang out v my friends just now....feel tired....haha...thanks my dear friends treat me just now...^^feel happy when hang out v them...yahoo~~we bought some clothes,jeans,belts n other...haha....but not spent more than RM120...haha...but later i wan back setapak already...><....i dun wan back lo...so bored at setapak...feel...like alone...but alone is ok for me...^^ haih..wat can i eat when i'm stay at hostel?? always the same foods...sienz~~nvm la...cheap ma..also can save money de...haha...actually  i have a stronger feel that i dun wan continue study...but i must continue...if not i waste my 1st sem's times n money...but if i continue,will i can handle it well?? will i happy?? By the way,i need to solve my loan problem 1st...if i cant settle my loan,maybe i wont continue...so...depends lo...wat can i do when i'm free on friday?? stay at hostel?? hang out?? depends on my friends lo...having a stronger feel.....i dun wan back.....T.T
can i??? haha...i must face this fact...so...dun think too much...just do wat i should...is time to bath n have my dinner v my family...then...later back setapak...><....stephy,u can do it !!!^^

what a boring day??=="

This morning,i accompany my mom go pasar..i go to the bank check my balance too...but!!!PTPTN haven bank in the money to me!!!><!!!how i pay the fees???haih~~headache....nvm la..i still can pay myself de...after back home,i called PTPTN hotline,but...tha hot line change nombur ald...so i called another nomber...but!!!they didnt answer my called,n told me called back on monday..><...yo...i wan my money leh...plz approve me la...T.T~~after that,i went to grand union v my bf bought some food for my breakfast when i'm stay at hostel...i bought jor my favourite biscuit-honey star..^^happy...i can eat biscuit when i'm watching movie at hostel..yeah!!haha....i also painted my foot nail cause tooooooooo bored.....haha....v a blue base n some shining silver...en...not bad...
I cant c my friends on fb de??? where they go??? haha...nvm la...just now i received a called from my friend...i cant attend their gathering..><!!i'm so sorry...dun wan angry me...u all know my bf de la...i also wish to attend de...u all keep asked me go...but very sorry la....i know u all so disapointed to me...i know u all will feel bored n miss me when no meet me..haha...=P nvm la...we still hv many chance,many times hang out 2gether de ma...right??haha...
Sooooooo boring leh.....wan hang out.....><...1 more day need back setapak le...i dun wan....can i??absolutely cannot!!! if i give up my study,my mom n dad will kill me...i almost write blog everyday...y like that 1??  am i addict in blog?? i think yes...nvm la...write blog is better...can release my emo here...everything just write here n forget it...haha...i will be more happy..but how write when i'm staying at hostel?? em..................
i can write in my netbook n saved in pendrive...when i'm free,i can copy to here...right??...walao...boring lehhhhhh!!!!!!!! cant hang out v friends,no friends on fb...><....sleepy...but i dun wan sleep....wan watch movie,but my dad is watching TV...nothing to do.....eat chips more n write my blog lo...but tomorrow i will hang out v my friends...happy^^...but tomorrow night wan back setapak jor...so boring....sleep awhile 1st,later movie time..i wan end this boring day now...haha...gud nitez...Zzzz~~

不安。。

刚才看了一个朋友的blog，真的写出我的心声。。这个假期让我领悟了很多事情。。还有两天

半就要回college了。。我此刻的心情很不安。。不知道又会遇到什么事，不知道要面对多少的

困难。。很不想回去。。现在的我很想挖个洞钻进去，什么都不用烦。。可是就算再怎么

想，我还是逃避不了要面对的事情。。真的很不安。。。唉~~怎么办呢？？我可以做些什么

好让我的心情安稳下来呢？？很讨厌不安的感觉。。我真的很不想回去。。可是我又很想见

我的朋友们。。我还可以像以前一样跟朋友们大声讲话大声笑吗？？我想我还是不要好了。

。我不想又有事情发生在我身上。。唉~~~不安啊不安。。。快远离我吧。。我并不喜欢你

。。我想要快乐，我想要简单。。这样就已经足够了。。可以吗？？O.o~~很希望时间可以

快点过。。希望下个sem break可以快点到来。。就趁现在这两天半的时间好好休息，好好

放松吧。。^^

看开。。

今天，在facebook里，我无意间看到你写的东西。。你写我。。说我误会你。。可是真的有

吗？？我听他们说是酱的。。我写的全都是真的，那是我的心声。。有人在我背后说了什么

我不知道。。我只知道你怎样想都随你吧。。我没有加盐加醋，我没有对你有偏见。。我只

是将我知道的，感觉到的写出来而已。。我看开了。。这些事情已经让我头痛很多天了。。

我也几天都在担心该怎么解释，该怎么证明我没有说谎。。不过，事情都已经变成酱了。。

我昨更多的解释，也没有用。。因为我证明不到。。我不会生气‘他们’不为我解释，澄

清。。因为我理解他们的心情。。也谢谢朋友们的关心与支持。。我要学会向前看，我是时

候长大了。。不要再让关心我的人担心我。。就算我们做不成朋友，我也不希望做敌人。。

就让这些事事非非让时间带走啦。。不想再为了这些事而心情不好，不开心了。。

看开吧。。让我为自己而开心吧。。