Dulan!!!!!

oOo....i super dulan u!!! WTF!!! i know wat u r thinking ald!! kns....haih.....well...i must control myself...don ask me who,and why! even though u say me petty,i also very angry!!! ><!!!!!!!!!! ok....let's forget about it...huhhhhhhh....................... meterialistic!!! ppl always like tat de la...something beneficial to u, then u will do something to close the ppl who can give u sweet...i know ald....but i also believe not all ppl like tat...also have some ppl not only thinking benefits for theirselves....erm....like....she,she,and he...haha....they know i know...others don know is doesnt matter...the most important is we know we are we happy...not ur business ald!!! because u said jor...we just respect u...

HOLIDAY!!!

My holiday start from 18th jan 2011(after exam)...actually i was happy cause no need study study and study again...but now...i feel that i would like to go college and study...bcoz this holiday make me feel bored!!! even thought i just back from ipoh...yesterday go ipoh at morning...when i reach my home town and met my cousins...i play with them..then...i GET HURT...haih...nvm...i felt super tired and sleep when i was at ipoh...i don know waht happen to me...my relatives pregnent ald...hope her daughter coming...what can i do in this holiday???? be a real pig??? sleep and eat??so...i prefer to work...but no part time job for me...><!! i need money,i need job...i also need ppl acc me to shopping,go here,go there...but no one...all busy their jobs...although have some friends free...but also no use...bcoz bf forbid me out with them...so....i really don know how i pass this holiday...if CNY still got out with family la...just fell bored before CNY...so....hope CNY will coming as soon as possible...but schooling day away from me as far as possible...i know after CNY i have no mood to study ald...haha...now is 1:38am...i'm still awake...what can i do?????????????? =="

怕

我今年没有倒数…在家里迎接2011年…可是我知道他出了很久…很夜都还没回家…我看了一整天的戏…很累…我想睡觉…可是却睡不着…我开始怕…我很怕…不知道在怕什么…感觉心里很寒…我连睡觉都不敢…我不知道为什么会酱…这种感觉是我最怕有的，也是在最近就开始会怕…我很不安…好像失了魂一样…我不知道自己想什么…不知道自己要做什么？我想太多了吗？我要怎样克服它？没有人会明白我的感觉，没有人会知道我有多怕…那种感觉就像身体里没有灵魂…我不敢睡觉…我缺乏安全感…我很没有安全感…我希望他可以在我身边陪我睡，这样我会觉得安全…睡得也比较放心…可是我知道不可能…感觉很无助…怕到我眼泪直流…我不想哭，可是我忍不到…只好偷偷流泪…幸好没被姐姐发现…我真的非常希望我不会再有这种感觉…阿弥陀佛…保佑我每天都平安，永远都不要再有这种感觉了…