我，任然在求学中....本想没有认识的人，或许会让我可以重新开始..但没想到还是遇到了他们...记得有人告诉我说不会读那个学校的，可是为什么还会看到你？终于，你和他就这样结束了...我也这么认为，不是因为他而是因为她的不堪寂寞...
话说回来，本来还以为找到了好的朋友...可没想到事情会再次发生...到底是什么原因？我不清楚...我只是知道你很爱夸大，吹水...你也只会抹黑我...你的目的达到了...恭喜...我在想，如果当时我站出来和你面对面说，结果还是一样吗？如果有得再给我选，我会面对面和你说清楚...至少我可以把我的感受，想法说出来...至于你怎样，我倒无所谓了...
身边的朋友都比我踏入社会，现在也有自己的工作...而我，依然在茫然的海中央飘扬着，不知该往哪个方向去...怎么办？他叫我做这个那个，可我并不喜欢...就连继续求学也不是我的选择...我在想为什么我都得听你们的？为什么我就不能自己做决定？我难道不可以自己选择我的未来吗？
真的太多太多东西让我烦心了...真想逃避...但是还是要面对...所以，我已经决定把学业搞好了再考虑未来...或许，我会自己决定...
自己选的路，就算跪着也要走完!!!
2012年9月18日星期二
Escape
Hmm........i though all of that end and i will never ever meet some people again...but,people still like ghost always follow me! u know i hate it? when i knew it, it's made me down and so damn hopeless as i very hope it's end....
pls..the god must freaking kidding me! how come i wan to escape all the shit but it always come to me?! huh??!! i have no choice,only can follow the fate..
OMG...is that my life be the same in the future? i don wan! actually I'm wonder why my personality will always listen and follow what others ask me to do?! why i cant have the courage to follow what my heart wish me to do?! why? why? why?
Well,i have no choice but to follow since it's one of my personality which will hurt myself deeply! yes,i knew it but i cant be the person who always think of self first! why? because my heart prohibited me to do something which will hurt others..this is my good and bad! i lossed to it! DAMN!
i wan a world that no body know me and hide myself as well as begin my new life! sure it's just a DREAM..haha..i knew this world is so materialistic and every1 only look into self interest..so,i have to be one of the person to protect my self from my enemy but not friends and family.. wish me luck forever and bad go far far away from me =)
pls..the god must freaking kidding me! how come i wan to escape all the shit but it always come to me?! huh??!! i have no choice,only can follow the fate..
OMG...is that my life be the same in the future? i don wan! actually I'm wonder why my personality will always listen and follow what others ask me to do?! why i cant have the courage to follow what my heart wish me to do?! why? why? why?
Well,i have no choice but to follow since it's one of my personality which will hurt myself deeply! yes,i knew it but i cant be the person who always think of self first! why? because my heart prohibited me to do something which will hurt others..this is my good and bad! i lossed to it! DAMN!
i wan a world that no body know me and hide myself as well as begin my new life! sure it's just a DREAM..haha..i knew this world is so materialistic and every1 only look into self interest..so,i have to be one of the person to protect my self from my enemy but not friends and family.. wish me luck forever and bad go far far away from me =)
2012年5月22日星期二
没有你在身边的日子...
给：他
你知道我非常害怕鬼，怕打打杀杀~是的！我非常，超级的怕！昨晚我躺在床上2个小时了，还没睡着~就在我差点要睡着的时候突然好想有人拿枕头打我的头~我就当场坐起来了~因为我的rommate睡得正想叻~不会是她打我啊~难道？？就是因为我睡的位置是比较没有阳光可以照进来所以好想暗暗的~我才会想多多啊！T,T
那时我怕得马上找你，还开门出去客厅一下下~虽然你用大笑安抚我，但是我还是很怕~~~mama~~~T,T 怕得想回家睡，想不睡撑到天亮~可是我的体力大不如前~只要累了就一定要睡，睡不著也一定要躺着休息~我对我的身体状况非常怕~担心哪天会想老人家一样的体魄~最后，我开门睡了..因为客厅的灯可以照进来一点点~这让我有点安心~所以，慢慢的我也就睡了~
我很想你好像那天一样陪我睡..那我就很安心睡了~当我心情不好，不安时~也只有你和爸爸妈妈可以让我安心~反而其他人就只会让我更心不安，烦~为什么呢？我自己也不知道~感觉吧~因为只有你和爸爸妈妈才会真的为我着想~但是有一样你比我爸爸妈妈优胜，就是当我心空空，飘飘（感觉很不好受）的时候~只要见到你，抱下你，那种感觉就好慢慢消失~
到底我为啥会有那种非常不好受的感觉呢？我也不知道~它说来就来的~><!! 或许是压力太大？ 或许是没有安全感？ 两个都有可能喔!! 要很serious的看待这个问题! 再有如此感觉，我就会告诉爸妈，并要求询问心里医生~因为我发觉问题越来越严重了~我怕下个跳楼的是我~真的怕~ T,T..
你要全力支持我，要多关心我~也希望朋友可以真心待我~那，我想我的轻生问题就会比较容易解决吧~阿弥陀佛，保佑我快快病好吧~
萍 上
你知道我非常害怕鬼，怕打打杀杀~是的！我非常，超级的怕！昨晚我躺在床上2个小时了，还没睡着~就在我差点要睡着的时候突然好想有人拿枕头打我的头~我就当场坐起来了~因为我的rommate睡得正想叻~不会是她打我啊~难道？？就是因为我睡的位置是比较没有阳光可以照进来所以好想暗暗的~我才会想多多啊！T,T
那时我怕得马上找你，还开门出去客厅一下下~虽然你用大笑安抚我，但是我还是很怕~~~mama~~~T,T 怕得想回家睡，想不睡撑到天亮~可是我的体力大不如前~只要累了就一定要睡，睡不著也一定要躺着休息~我对我的身体状况非常怕~担心哪天会想老人家一样的体魄~最后，我开门睡了..因为客厅的灯可以照进来一点点~这让我有点安心~所以，慢慢的我也就睡了~
我很想你好像那天一样陪我睡..那我就很安心睡了~当我心情不好，不安时~也只有你和爸爸妈妈可以让我安心~反而其他人就只会让我更心不安，烦~为什么呢？我自己也不知道~感觉吧~因为只有你和爸爸妈妈才会真的为我着想~但是有一样你比我爸爸妈妈优胜，就是当我心空空，飘飘（感觉很不好受）的时候~只要见到你，抱下你，那种感觉就好慢慢消失~
到底我为啥会有那种非常不好受的感觉呢？我也不知道~它说来就来的~><!! 或许是压力太大？ 或许是没有安全感？ 两个都有可能喔!! 要很serious的看待这个问题! 再有如此感觉，我就会告诉爸妈，并要求询问心里医生~因为我发觉问题越来越严重了~我怕下个跳楼的是我~真的怕~ T,T..
你要全力支持我，要多关心我~也希望朋友可以真心待我~那，我想我的轻生问题就会比较容易解决吧~阿弥陀佛，保佑我快快病好吧~
萍 上
2012年5月11日星期五
kanasai people!
i don know why some ppl very be the busybody! is it too boring? please la! just busy ur things then enough ard! u don have but others have, u also cant like someone try to break it because of u envy others! that's ur personal problems! know??!!
when i said 1 time, i'm not wish to repeat, repeat and repeat again! please respect others before u did something! think about others! how many times we repeat the same words to u?! huh??!! u can't understand chinese and english?! dont try to challenge my patient! I ALWAYS SILENT NOT MEAN I HAVE NO ANGER EMOTIONAL! really kanasai! if u cant handle well please dont put ur shit face like u can do it! i hate u when i saw that face!
someone told me that M'sia is a harmony and nice country..that person said he can easily see the smile even don know each other or heard "sorry" from others when something happen..WTF! i totally not agree! M'sia people only think of self benefits! they do everything just because of their own benefits! well, maybe he is very lucky to meet those nice people..
BTW, i saw one person posted "friends is for utilize"..just like a goods, we use it when we need it, we neglect it when we happy ourselves..is it correct? well, before i start my college life, i m not agree with that sentence, but during my college life i own an experience and totally agree with that sentence that people posted at his facebook status..
ya! i learn many of the social theories while i'm studying at college! "thanks" those who make me hurt and those who attack me! i'm gradually become more stronger and independent!
when i said 1 time, i'm not wish to repeat, repeat and repeat again! please respect others before u did something! think about others! how many times we repeat the same words to u?! huh??!! u can't understand chinese and english?! dont try to challenge my patient! I ALWAYS SILENT NOT MEAN I HAVE NO ANGER EMOTIONAL! really kanasai! if u cant handle well please dont put ur shit face like u can do it! i hate u when i saw that face!
someone told me that M'sia is a harmony and nice country..that person said he can easily see the smile even don know each other or heard "sorry" from others when something happen..WTF! i totally not agree! M'sia people only think of self benefits! they do everything just because of their own benefits! well, maybe he is very lucky to meet those nice people..
BTW, i saw one person posted "friends is for utilize"..just like a goods, we use it when we need it, we neglect it when we happy ourselves..is it correct? well, before i start my college life, i m not agree with that sentence, but during my college life i own an experience and totally agree with that sentence that people posted at his facebook status..
ya! i learn many of the social theories while i'm studying at college! "thanks" those who make me hurt and those who attack me! i'm gradually become more stronger and independent!
2012年4月28日星期六
LAST SEM
Oh~ few days more have to go back my college life~is my LAST semester...hahahahaha......btw, i have to study 5 days per week, 4 days of 8am class..Oh my gosh~! damn it! hmm...hope those subjects will not so difficult...
MAY, is a month that i wish that something can be done it perfectly~ ^,^ what's that?? secret~ haha...
Beginning of the new semester, hope everything will be fine and alright~ I want a healthy lifestyle..can i ?? let's see afterward... =]
MAY, is a month that i wish that something can be done it perfectly~ ^,^ what's that?? secret~ haha...
Beginning of the new semester, hope everything will be fine and alright~ I want a healthy lifestyle..can i ?? let's see afterward... =]
2012年3月31日星期六
Never Regret
我还有五个月就毕业了~很繁忙，又烦闷的生活~(╯﹏╰）这就是我的学院生活~可我却享受着这样的生活，可以来去自如~不必让人牵绊~偶尔较长的Break跟比较交心的朋友走街，很不错哦..而且我现在有一个月的假期叻~Yeah!! =)
对于以前的一切，那将成为我最想遗忘的东西..如果可以重头来过，我会选择自己要选的路..我不会选择这些人和事~如果有得重头再来，我不会选择换个方式来对人和事..可我会选择我们从没遇过..
很多人都说，女人的沉默是她们最大的哭声（无论是爱情还是友情甚至亲情）~我以前还不以为意叻..还以为是随便讲出来的一句话..可是，现在我终于明白了..这是真的喔~之前还有几位朋友问我近况时，我本想说还好~可是我当时却眼泪直流，一句话也说不出口~他们看到当然很惊讶~他们以为我过得很不错，因为以前的我很乐观，很率真，很坚强~可是万万没想到我竟然会落得如此地步~安抚好我的情绪后，他们说我变得不再像以前一样爱说话，不再坚强了~
是啊~我变了..变得每天沉默不语..变得很冷酷，让人难以接近了~可是，我有我的苦衷啊~回想起以前那些事，我不得不竖起我的刺来保护自己啊~既然知道每个人有不同的想法和性格，我唯有对别人的事不闻不问，甚至不关心 ，才可以让自己安然的过我的生活啊..以避免让别人乘机说我慰问别人时别有用心~
当一个人到了极其失望的时候，沉默将会成为你的好朋友...我也就因为对某些人跟事极其失望而保持沉默~相反的，我却只会对几位好友什么事都聊个没完没了~因为，他们明白我的想法..会给我鼓励，安慰，劝告，甚至漫骂..他们也为我遭遇的事情感到不甘和心闷闷不乐的~因为他们说只可以听我诉苦，却无能为力..没关系，有你们听我诉苦就好了..其他的，随他吧~
但愿我以后漫长的人生不会再遇到这些事，更不要大风大浪的就好了...♥♥♥
2012年3月18日星期日
Sis- Sue Chong Big Day!!
wow~today is Sue's big day, her wedding day~ i woke up at 7am and prepared to be her sister early in the morning~ so tired! i almost over slept! lol... we played games, accompanied she go her husband house~
finally! dinner at night! i saw many friends and ex-classmate~ a person that i so surprise when i saw is my ex-purcusion member! she, is my group member in secondary school and in the drum group~ we played drum, xylophone, timpani, bell and other music instrument together.. haha! so surprise! we still remember each other..
lastly, i met my friends~so nice! miss them so much! we sat together and chit-chat.. when we finished the dinner, i still asked them :" is it finished?" haha.. because we all busy for work, and study ma..sure no time can gather lor..that's why i don't think the wedding dinner ended already~
i know we have no much time and chance to gather together..but i know we will keep all of us in our heart..even we have no gather always, but we will never ever forget each other~this is the friendship between us~ =)
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| My brothers, so handsome~ |
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| most left side- we played drum together when we were secondary, so surprise can saw her again. XD |
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| lovely sis married lor~ |
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| Yeah!! |
lastly, i met my friends~so nice! miss them so much! we sat together and chit-chat.. when we finished the dinner, i still asked them :" is it finished?" haha.. because we all busy for work, and study ma..sure no time can gather lor..that's why i don't think the wedding dinner ended already~
i know we have no much time and chance to gather together..but i know we will keep all of us in our heart..even we have no gather always, but we will never ever forget each other~this is the friendship between us~ =)
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